[x]EnterMyWorld,AbandonAllYeFaith[x]

well...

2006-06-13T23:36:00.000-07:00

ok ok ok, im gona have to leave wayne i no, and im gonna, i dont want to, but im gonna, i dont wanna let him go at all infact right now i just wanna giv him a big cuddle, but i have to let go, im not sure i even like sean now i mean wtf?! no, i do,i do like sean, i get butterflies round him and i always think about him, iv got sean on the brain, but my heart hurts for wayne?! does that even make sense? arrrrrgh what am i gna do! and il bet im gna see wayne on the way to skool...DAMM IT oh fuck a duck im screwed...

Fuck..basically

2006-06-12T22:46:00.000-07:00

oh my god!! NO! mezza (sean) came over last night...after wayne went he turned up, we were messing around, play fighting and all sorts, tickleing you know, as u do, but then every so often, we'd get REALLY close to kissing, but one of us would move. when we were playing i hid my head under my pillow, and he moved his under then to and jus smiled =) but this time..nobody moved away..it happend..i kissed sean...=O im a bitch, iv gota leave wayne now aint i? i dont wanna, i think i love wayne, but oh my sean! i really like him to!! grr!
fuck this im going to get stonned...

brakes

2006-06-11T23:20:00.000-07:00

i feel so crap. i feel so hurt...i want mezza, and i want wayne (i thinks=s) ouuuuch! OUCH! OOOOOUUUUCCCCCHHH! Me thinks hann heart just broke! =( what the fucking hell am i going to do?!? god damn it..i feel so shit, i really am messed up..i despratly want what i cant have, and when i get it, i dont want it...what is wrong with me? grr!! and to top this all off..i want trigger back..hes my...ex ex ex boifriend! we were together 16months! thats it..its offical..
Hann Follett IS a total fuck up...

This is going to happen..its GOT to happen...

2006-06-11T23:16:00.000-07:00

ok ok heres the deal. me and one of my best mates, bec, have both given up on boys now. shes having problems with them, and i seem to be with wayne, mezza etc etc etc. so..
we have decided that she is moving down here with me (stourport) and were going to have our own house, a nice one, a girly one. and were going to have a big back garden, and a paddling pool, were FIT FIT FIT lads come over all the time and go in it with us, and we dont have to go skool or anythin, just chill with the fitties....

Not Good..

2006-06-11T22:41:00.000-07:00

oh my god. why? what is the point? GRR! i feel shite! the gourgous wheather has turned to a big wack of thinder storm, my boifreind seems more distance to me, i think iv fallen for one of my mates, its a good life....
So this is nice, left sunburned it a thunderstorm.
Wayne, havent seen him since thursday, its monday, to be fair, i have been at my dads all weekend, yet he made no effort to see me yesterdai nor today. well, i asked if i was seeing him today, all i got back was"i dont no yet"..fine...
Mezza, hes gawjus (well not so gawjus but once u no him..) hes a mazin mate i tell him everythin! and he tells me stuff to. yesterdai we were in ashliegh's paddlin pool with her and nath. i got a bit hot n botherd so went and lay on thingy's trampaline, he lay next to me. we started talkin and laffin, and he started (as a joke) takin my top off, and yet, i made no effort to stop him...oh dear...and then him and ash came bak to mine, ash went so it was just us. he played around, he made me tea bless him the classic fish fingers and chips.."its all i know how to cook!!" arw! xx and when it came for him to leave, we were at the door, and he gave me like the NICEST hug ever! and goes "hann, can i ask you for something?" and i was like "go for it" and he replied...
"i cant, i know you wouldnt, it doesnt matter" was he on about a kiss!?!? god i hope so..i mean hope not..no i dont no! ahh! point is i THINK im starting to like him!=( and me thinks he likes me to?!? or maybe its just..no..i like him..dear god im a tit...

2006-06-08T08:22:00.000-07:00

wow..prepare yourself for a MAJORERLY long blog...its been one hell of a day!
ok ok walked to school, that was alrite cuz i was with me best mate nath! hes such a mate its unreal! i see him every day without fail! thats me and him! love that pic its gawjus! anyway he we had a nice chat as u do, then got to school, lessons were alrite until i got to second period..p.e. i cant stand it, so quite naturally, i dont do it. well, i do sumtimes and i would of today, but i found out we had to run 18oo metres..in this heat? i thinkl not my friend, so quite rightly i politly told the teacher were to shove it...ened up sittin in a room alone, writting an eassy witht eh title "why phisical education is important" grr! that anoyed me. then i got to thinking, about wayne and this "friend" he has. well..it got to lunch time and i saw him. as he does, he asked if i was alrite and i came out with a straight answer "no..." why wassup? i told him id heard he'd been flirting with this "friend" and he said nah babe shes justa good mate, gave me a slap on the bum kiss on the cheek and walked off..hmm still not happy. so later on in lunch i saw him, with her..obviously! and went over. and he goes "im an arse" and i said why what you done. and he was like nothing i just am havent u worked out that all lads are all this while his "friend" had a very guilty look and was arwy of me) i jus replied hmm. he pulled me over and gave me a massive hug, she walked of thank god. and he said im an arse for loving you to much (tryin to suck up but bless him) and i said well that dont make you an arse..i love you to...followed by a big smoooooooch! anyway were played around, wrestled, tickled, as u do, lol. i was feelin ruff tho, hayfever had hit me bad so my eyes were all horrible (eyeliner smudged to fuckery) and i kept sneezing, hair was a mess due to tha heat, but he still said i look god damn sexy! woo!

2006-06-07T23:00:00.000-07:00

Oo La La Its me! heehee im really worryin about going to school, i no im gona see him with curby i just no it! and i know its gonna fuck me off! grr! Should i seriously be worrying this much? well, i cant blame myself the past 3 relashionships iv had havent exactly what ud say "worked" (more details another time) and im really really liken wayne, seriosuly maybe falling for him! ooo! Shizer! Hes fucking gawjus tho! 6'4, amazing blue eyes, cute face, strong jaw line(yummy! lol). i know what your thinking 6'4? lanky basterd! but he aint at all he plays rugby so hes got like..muscle! PHOOOARR! i dont actualy know what hes doing with me? maybe he doesnt...which is why he flirts with curby. but, trying not to sound big head at all, i know that like im..better looking, which is what blags my head!!! grrrrrrrrrrrrr! thats it..i need a game plan..all iv got...is to look as gawjus as possible, and just glide past him when hes with curby. make his head turn then jus signal him over. and give him a kiss to remember! hmm...we'll see if that works shal we...

Hmmm...

2006-06-07T22:27:00.000-07:00

well, geting slightly worried now about my boyfrined and his "friend" curby. ok ok i can handle seeing him hug her in the playgroud, cuz i hug my "lad" mates. but when my best friend comes over to drag me and watch him flirting with her round the english corner...yeah...its just about then i start to panic slightly. i really like him, i mean sure i flirt, but its harmless, cheeky comments. not running off behind some corner to do it. seriously uming and aring now whether to ask him about it??!! Hmmm...At the end of the day its ME hes with aint it? so what if he flirts...its not that bad...is it?
Felt great yesterdai, before all this "incident" i saw his ex despratl;y trying to make converstation and flirt with him, he was having non of it. when he saw me he jus lliked grinned and ran over and gave me the biggest kiss, the ex's face droped..and i just felt like sticking my tounge out lol! actually, thats kind of bitchy, but what ya gonna do?
further info on "wayne curby situation" today after skool!!
Hann x

This Is it

2006-06-07T10:26:00.000-07:00

heya
i have alot going on to be fair, and have no way of expressing anything. i mean, i always just want to blurt things out, but cant. i no i dont get answers from a blog, but it helps me in a way. i mean i have had diaries, but they always seem to get lost! so iv decided to start a blog. So hey hoe here it goes...
This Is It...
Hann (smokee)